LOVE YOURSELF FIRST

I spent my weekend at my friend's cabin. It was really nice to be in the middle of nowhere for a change.

It was so refreshing to just listen to music, eat, talk bullshit, and drink.

I've lost almost all my contact with my friends, I can say that at the moment I only have one true friend (and my boyfriend). But it's weird cause I don't mind, I'm just happy that life has led me to the right people for me, so far. You'll never know what happens next, but I'm just happy here and now.

These four pictures are pretty much the only photos I took during my weekend. 

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I only have 2 movie recommendations for you guys this time, but they're both really super great.

MARY AND MAX

This movie is the best movie I have seen in a long time. If I had to choose a movie that describes my mind the most, this would be one of the few. Mary And Max tells a story between two unlikely pen pals; Mary, a lonely eight-year-old girl living in Melbourne, and Max, a forty-four-year old, severely obese man living in New York.

I know, it doesn't seem that special, and even I was questioning the high rate of this movie, but I honestly fell in love. It is funny and absolutely sad at the same time, it tells you how you should love yourself before loving anyone else, and it teaches you how you shouldn't change yourself for anyone else.

THE GRAND BUDAPEST HOTEL

I'm a huge fan of Wes Anderson, so I knew that I would like, or even love, The Grand Budapest Hotel. It was even better than I would've expected. The casting was absolutely perfect, Tony Revolori was such a cutiepie and Ralph Fiennes captured his role perfectly. It's that kind of movie that I might want to see it 10 times in a row. I also might have ordered some ''Lobby Boy'' inspired accessorize. 

HELLO DARKNESS MY OLD FRIEND

From now on I'll try and post at least once a week with something else than outfits and clothing I get. I have tattoo post, all of my shoes, all of my favourite clothes, and my make up routine on my list, but if you have anything else you want to see or hear, let me know! I'm still gonna keep posting about my movie review here, cause I enjoy giving you tips.

I've been having some bad days lately, I get really sad easily and small things seem unbearable. I also forgot to take my meds for a few days and I felt like absolute shit. I was really emotional and I almost felt like dying. That scares me, cause I don't want to be on meds for that long, but I don't know how I'll be able to manage without them. Things are fine at the moment though, and that's enough comfort for me. 

Sheinside once again send me some amazing summer pieces;

First piece I chose is pretty obvious pick coming from me, cause I'm all about cats. I have to admit that at first I was a bit doubtful, cause it's not your most basic dress and it's sort of ugly, but when I tried it on, all the doubt was gone. It's perfect! I like the neutral colours of it, it helps so you can wear it with lots of things. It's a one size fits all, but it's ''swimsuit material'' so it also fits for bigger girls like me. You can find the dress in here!

This set includes both the top and the skirt. It's absolutely perfect for summer for its bright colours and flower print. You can find this set in here!

I don't think that I own any jackets that are light enough to wear in summer, but now I do. This is perfect, cause you can wear it with girly clothes and dresses (because of the pretty details) or with basic clothes, like shorts (cause the shape isn't that feminine). You can find the jacket in here!

MOVIE NIGHT

It's been awhile since I last wrote. Nothing has happened, all that I can really say is that I'm generally happy. And when I'm happy, I tend to leave everything else for awhile and just live in the moment and enjoy.

I still enjoy watching movies, I think that is something that I'm never gonna get bored of. I've been also watching much more anime that I used to, and my boyfriend has introduced to me some of great anime shows and movies. I don't really have friends who love anime, I don't think that any of them even like animation films, so it's nice to have someone who enjoys them even more than I do.

I've watched 93 movies in 2014 so far, so I'm pretty sure I have some good finds to show you guys.

First, I'm gonna talk about Satoshi Kon. He died at age 46, and during his lifetime he made some really good stuff. Me and my bf watched pretty much everything that he made and I really liked his style. I know that anime isn't for everyone, but I'm still going to give it a shot and let you guys decide if you feel like watching these or not.

Probably everyone who's even mildly interested in anime knows the movie Paprika (パプリカ Papurika). Some people said that Inception stole the idea from Paprika.

Paprika isn't my favourite from Satoshi, so I'm not going to include it in here, but if you're interested in him, you're probably gonna enjoy it. But here we go;

Perfect Blue (パーフェクトブルー Pāfekuto Burū)

This film is pretty brilliant, and it's very similar to Black Swan. Darren Aronofsky actually bought the rights of this film cause he wanted to use some scenes in his other movies, and I'm pretty sure Darren got some inspiration for Black Swan from this.

Perfect Blue is a story about Mima, former pop singer turned into actress. Her sense of reality is shaken when she is stalked by an obsessed fan. The movie gets a bit confusing and at times you don't know what is real and what isn't, but I think that this is a film that even people who aren't anime fans can really enjoy watching.

Tokyo Godfathers (東京ゴッドファーザーズ Tōkyō Goddofāzāzu)

Tokyo Godfathers was actually the first film I saw from Satoshi Kon and it is my personal favourite.

This movie doesn't have that many supernatural scenes, and everything pretty much makes sense in some way, so it is really easy to watch, unlike all the other stuff from him.

It tells a story about three homeless people in Tokyo who find a newborn baby among the trash, and how they try to find her parents. This is just really heartwarming and special movie.

Nymphomaniac

I actually saw this movie already awhile ago, so my memory isn't super clear, but I still wanted to include it in this list, cause it is something to really watch.

I remember how everyone talked about this movie when Lars Von Trier announced that it is going to happen. Everyone was talking about how Lars wanted to show actual sex on screen and how Shia LaBeouf sent Lars a real sex tape of him and her girlfriend having sex, cause Lars wasn't convinced Shia had what it got for the role.

The movie's about a woman named Joe, who tells her story about her sexual experiences as a nymphomaniac to a man who saved her after beating. She tells the story right from the beginning when she was a little girl, finishing the story to the same night the man found her all beaten up.

It's hard to explain the story more closely cause it is nothing I've ever seen before really. The whole movie lasts for 4 hours and it is divided to 2 movies. It's really a long story, but if you are motivated and interested, I bet you won't think that you wasted your time, whether you end up liking it or not.

The Graduate

I can't believe that I only watched this film recently. It's from 1967 and it's a classic. I'm a fan of 60's and 70's movies but I don't usually watch movies because ''it's a classic, you should see it''. 

But I ended up loving The Graduate. It's such a heartwarming, silly and happy movie (and a bit sad). It tells a story about Benjamin Braddock, recent college graduate, who gets trapped into an affair with Mrs. Robinson, who happens to be a wife of his father's business partner, and then finds himself falling for her daughter, Elaine. The soundtrack of this movie is Perfect also (Simon & Garfunkel) 

Movies I also enjoyed: Her, Stoker, 12 Years A Slave, Django Unchained, Wall-e, The Amazing Spider-Man 2, Dancer In The Dark

Movies I didn't enjoy: Buffalo '66, American Hustle, Drinking Buddies