NEW BLOG

I made a new blog where I'm going to post stuff about movies, books and such, so if you're interested, click here!

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IN ENGLISH

I've been blogging since I was 14. It was so much fun and exciting, I loved taking photos of basically everything and I loved writing about stupid little things.

But now I'm 22 and I'm not really sure if this is my thing anymore. I used to feel ashamed when I didn't update my blog but now, to be honest, I don't care.

I feel so sad that it has come to this, I used to be so sure that I'd still be blogging when I was 40.

I miss it when blogging felt fun and necessary, when it felt like keeping a diary.

As you can see, I don't even know what I should say right now. Why would I have a blog if I couldn't write something this simple.

I'm still very much that same girl, I still like taking photos, watching too many movies, reading books, buying clothing that I will never use. 

I have to admit that Instagram has something to do with this. It's just so much easier to share a one single photo when I'm on the go. It just takes so much more to have a blog and I'm lazy.

I'm not 100% sure about my decision just yet though. I will take my time and not rush things. Some of you probably remember all those times when I said that I wasn't going to blog anymore and I still did, over and over again. This time it just feels different. I don't know.

Thank you all so much after all these year, it wouldn't be the same without you guys. I hope to see you again!

IN FINNISH

Mä olen pitänyt blogia 14-vuotiaasta saakka. Se oli niin kivaa ja jännittävää, mä rakastin ottaa kuvia about kaikesta mahdollisesta ja mä tykkäsin kirjoittaa tyhmiä pieniä asioita. 

Mutta nyt mä olen 22 ja mä en ole enää varma onko tää mun juttuni. Mua ennen hävetti jos mä en päivittänyt mun blogiani, mutta nyt, rehellisesti sanottuna, mua ei kiinnosta.

Mä olen tosi surullinen että tää on tullut tähän, mä olin ennen aivan varma että tulisin bloggaamaan vielä nelikymppisenäkin. Mä kaipaan sitä, miten blogin pitäminen oli hauskaa ja tarpeellista, miten se tuntui kun kirjottaisi päiväkirjaa.

Kuten varmaan huomaatte, mä en edes tiedä mitä mä nyt kirjoittaisin. Minkä takia mulla olisi blogi, jos mä en osaa kirjoittaa edes mitään näin yksinkertaista?

Mä olen silti melkein täysin sama tyttö mitä mä olin. Mä silti otan turhia kuvia, katson liikaa leffoja, luen kirjoja ja ostan vaatteita joita en ikinä käytä.

Mun on pakko myöntää, että Instagramilla on jotain osuutta asiaan. Se on vaan niin paljon helpompaa jakaa yksi ainut kuva liikenteessä. Blogin pitäminen vaatii paljon enemmän, ja mä olen laiska.

Mä en ole 100% varma mun päätöksestäni vielä. Mä aion ottaa oman aikani enkä kiirehdi. Jotkut teistä varmaan muistaa ne lukuisat kerran kun mä sanoin etten bloggaisi enää, mutta silti jokainen kerta palasin. Tää kerta vaan tuntuu erilaiselta.

Kiitos teille kaikille näistä vuosista, tää ei olis ollut samanlaista ilman teitä. Mä toivon että me nähdään uudestaan!

FEELING BLUE

FAUX FUR SCARF FROM GLITTER, DISCO PANTS FROM H&M, BOOTS FROM EBAY

I got this Sheinside (Click!) jacket a while ago. I'm so in love with this kind of pale blue. I just got blue sweater and a skirt and I'm honestly thinking about wearing all these 3 together. And getting matching Kånken backpack.

I'm so sorry for not posting for ages. About a month ago I started to feel really sick and weak. My head was constantly spinning and all I wanted to do was sleep. And I rarely had the strength to go out and meet my friends. Then I realized that I had been eating very poorly, basically only pasta and some veggies. Yesterday I decided to start eating fish (mostly salmon and no shrimps or tuna) and I don't know if it's just placebo or something but I'm feeling better. It was hard for me cause I'd like to think that every animal is a friend but I have to put my health in front of everything sometimes.

I'm also not sure what I want to do with my blog. This whole thing hasn't felt something that's my thing. I'd want to write more about books and movies and things that I think about anything. I'd also want to blog more about beauty and health related things. And I'd love to have some food recipes in here. 

I'm turning 22 next month and I feel so clueless about life and everything. I'm not sure if I know who I am.

JUST SOME NAIL THANG

I'm so sorry for not posting for so long. It seems that all these days just passed by and I didn't even remember that I have a blog. I actually have some new things to show you, tons of movies to recommend, new decoration in our house and some make up products. From now on I'll try my best to post once a week or more often.

But today I'll show you some of my new nail polish finds. I used to bite my nails a lot and my nails were always really short and ugly. But somehow I managed to grow them and now they're pretty decent. My ''new'' nails are the reason why I've been buying so many nail polishes. 

I discovered a brand called Essence just a few months ago. I ordered some products from Kosmetik4Less and I got hooked instantly. All the products are very affordable and very good quality, I've liked everything that I've ordered so far. 

I already have these nail polishes but I'm planning to get even more;

From left to right: Icy fairy, Party in a bottle, Lovely,Maybe, Julia & Black dress and white tie

Glitter polishes are awesome. Whenever I fuck up my nail polish, I just put on some glitter and it looks perfect instantly. 

From left to right: Space queen, Be my lucky star &  Me & my lover 

Sand effect polishes are so awesome and they try quickly, so when I'm in hurry I choose these.

From left to right: Who am I?, Hit the road, red!, Hope for love & I'm lost in you

I really like the colours of Essences the nudes nail polishes, they look really natural and beautiful.

From left to right: Black is back, Little lila town & Today is fun day

Just some basic colours. I'm really into pastel purple and blue right now.

Some basic top and base coats. 

I'm honestly so in love with that nail art tattoo pen, it's so sharp and it looks just like a pen so you can draw really clear photos.

And my newest addiction; nail foils. They are super amazing, I don't know why I haven't used them before. I really like this kind of cracked look.

YELLOW SUBMARINE

Ugh I really miss natural light and being able to take photos whenever I want. It's pitch black outside after 4 P.M. during winter. So I hope that these photos are good enough.

But yeah, I received this Sheinside jacket a long time ago but forgot to post photos of it. I don't know why I chose the yellow color but I just fell in love with it. It brightens up my mood when it's dark and black everywhere. You can find the jacket in here!

I was drooling over a bright yellow Fjällräven backpack and decided to buy it for myself when it's my birthday. But I spotted this on our local Facebook flea market 25€! I'm super happy, it's perfect.

SIZE 12 IS NOT FAT

I think I'm getting my old habit back (taking pointless photos). Taking photos is super fun, I feel like 14 again when I loved to take photos of my feet. I'm just sad that I feel more insecure about my body than I've ever felt. I feel like I'm really big and nothing looks great on me. I tried to take outfit photos but I only see how bloated and big I look and I don't want to publish photos of my body. I don't think that being ''fat'' is my biggest problem, I just hate it that I'm not confident. I want to feel good in my body, whether I'm super big or very tiny.

I have my mermaid hair back! I dyed my hair dark brown and got extensions and now I feel like a total princess. 

I've never been a big Guess fan, I just don't think that most of the bags of the brand look that nice. But when I found this bag our local Facebook flea market I fell in love. It only cost 30€ and it's pretty much in a perfect condition. The colour of the back is this deep chocolate brown (do I sound pretentious?)

I used to have this bag and I loved it but it broke a few years ago. My mom found the exact same kind from flea market for 4€! I was so happy, that's just so crazy low price and it's in mint condition. I think it's from this brand called Kling.

Yeah I know, I know. I just had to photograph this bag cause it's so amazing. I can't wait to wear it! It's from eBay and you can find it under a name ''Fashion gun bag''.

I've not always been a fan of Fjällräven's Kånken bags. Not because they're ugly or anything, but they're just very ordinary and they're really expensive for that kind of bag. I found this one from flea market and it was only 15€! After that I just fell in love and now I get all the hype, I'm probably going to buy myself a new yellow one when it's my birthday. 

Cute photo of Linda. She passed away a little over 2 years ago and I miss her.

I collect these kind of vases from flea markets. I have them all around the house.

My Sailor Moon necklaces and some manga. 

I rarely drink, and when I do, I always drink coffee liqueur with milk. 

Our awesome Godzilla clock. 

Pesto is so cute! She's pretty tiny still and she's already 8 months old.

Over 90% of these DVD's are mine. I used to buy DVD's all the time but nowadays I'm lazy and I watch everything from Netflix.

Wall of cats.

VS is amazing, cause almost everything smells great and the packaging is cute.

MERRY CHRISTMAS CUTIEPIES

I wish you all merry Christmas! Christmas is my favourite holiday of all, I really like spending time with my family and eating good food (although this year it was pretty hard cause I love ham, but I haven't had a bite of any kind of meat in almost 6 months). This is also the first Christmas I'm spending with Behnam and Pesto's first Christmas ever.

Like every year, I'm going to show you what I got for Christmas. I'm super happy with everything I got!

This bag is my favourite thing ever! It's fake Vlieger & Vandam, but the real one is just way too expensive for me, so instead I got this. I'm going to wear this everyday, but I'm also hoping that no one think that I have an actual gun in my purse.

A couple of new iPhone cases. The red one looks exactly like real candy wrapper.

I got so many make up products, but this one is my favourite. It's Naked 3 dupe palette from W7. I ordered this with my boyfriend from Kosmetik4Less (you should check it out, there's so many cheap and great products). This one cost 9€ (how crazy!) and the Naked 3 palette costs around 50€.

I also got tons of new lip products from E.L.F., NYX, Wet 'N' Wild, Essence and Klean Color. I'm thinking about making a review of these and other things that I got, like posting photos of how they actually look.

Lip balms from my mom. My lips are always super chapped, so these are great.

Bronzer from W7. I love it, the packaging is awesome and the bronzer looks great on my skin. Too Faced has a bronzer that looks almost exactly like this one.

Some new highlighters from Behnam.

Eyeshadows. I'm into peachy and reddish glitter shadows.

Golden glitter eyeliner, new mascara and my absolute favourite foundation.

Transparent and red lipliner.

Glitter nail polish. I already tested this and it looks so neat, I have to definitely show you how it looks irl.

Blush in tube.

Body wash, conditioner and body lotion from Desert Essence and super sweet Victoria's Secret body lotion. I'm gonna smell super nice, I have so many body and hair products.

Adventure Time. My favourite show and probably my new favourite shirt.

Super cute mugs.

New camera! I've been in need of some simple and small camera that I can carry with me, cause my current camera is too big.

Super soft bathrobe.

Duvet cover sets for me and Behnam.

I also got some money, hair extensions (my hair is finally going to be long!!!), pajamas, chocolate, candles and so on.